turning away from chaos

Fear
Evokes Anger
And Retreat
And Despair

It is too much in my face
It is too much in the voices
That call to me to join them
In the chaos

It wants to steal my soul

And yet

And yet

There is still beauty in the sunrise

Even yet the giggle of a child
Can break my heart

My lover’s gaze can feed my soul

I will not give them all of me
Those voices of chaos and fear
Those calls to join the fray
That try to evoke both fear and guilt
To steal my life
One distraction at a time

This moment
I will pause
And breathe
And give thanks
For there is much to be thankful for

The very idea
That what I value
Is at risk
Confirms that I value something.

For just a moment I will turn my eyes
To see the preciousness of life
And deny the chaos
That would rip it from me
With the grip of the very fear
That claims I must protect it.

Fear will not help.
Anger will not keep it at bay.
To retreat is to leave the joy behind, as well.
Despair is capitulation to the foe.

But joy
And beauty
Are waiting
If I will but shift my gaze

The source of hope
Is a move from fear
To gratitude

photo by Pascal Gaudette retrieved from Flickr per CC BY-NC-SA 2.0

saving daylight

Through the miracle of the clock
We strive to move a bit of sunlight
To the other end of the day.

Our bodies
And our babies
And our pets
Comply more slowly
Having other ways
Of experiencing time.
But they adapt.

The cows in the field
Don’t even notice.
It is not a change for them.
Nor for the crickets
Or the owls
Or those pesky barn swallows.
They continue to dance
Within the arms of another.

While we are torn away
To march with commerce.
We sit within the steel frames
Of our creations,
Obedient to the demands
Of our responsibilities.

Our possessions
Which, by that same mechanism,
Have somehow turned
And seem to possess us,
Claiming the bulk of our time.

So, each spring we lose an hour
Only to find it again in the fall.
And we carry the facsimile of control
Into one more year.

Sometimes I envy the cows.

photo by marneejill retrieved from Flickr per cc BY-SA 2.0