a word trip

You don’t ever know where a sentence will take you, depending on its roll and fold.   -Mary Oliver
I’m truly surprised 
That I can surprise myself.

My fingers on the keyboard,
My eyes closed,
In that safe space
I can let myself go.

I usually start with some word or phrase or image.
I take a moment to embrace that kernel
And then I drop it to the earth
And let the soil blow over.
The soft rains come.
The sun’s warm cuddle
Holds it close.

And I wait.
It takes time.
It takes release.
(Ok, it takes time to release it.)


But, after a bit,
It starts to grow.
It pushes tiny leaves
Above the earth’s crumble.
They lift and expand
Searching for the light
That will touch
The life within themselves.

That tiny seedling
Grows within the soil
Of who I am.
It seeks a light
To lift my life
And connect it all:
The earth, the sun,
The tiny leaves of hope.

And so, it is surprising
To find my thoughts
Have gone somewhere unexpected
And discovered
Also, a surprise,
That they are back
Where they started
But somehow richer
Fuller, more complete.

I follow my words
Down the path of my imagination
And find myself
At the end of the loop
Smiling in surprise
At a tiny seedling
Growing
Here
Within.

Quotation from Devotions: The Selected Poems of Mary Oliver (p. 257). Kindle Edition.

Photo by Samuel hosted by Flickr and used per CC BY-NC 2.0. 

love is a balm

Love is a balm.

Pull it up to your chin
Like a blanket.
Even the memory
Of its smile
Can keep you warm.

And when you get the chance
Wrap it around the shoulders
Of a friend.
One tender touch
Is enough to bring a softness
To their day.

Photo by jameliah e. posted to flickr and used per cc 2.0

a thread

In all this hubbub, I find that
I’ve folded my small world around me
Drawn in tightly
Hunkered down.

My protective stance is to withdraw
Rather than strike out.
Yet that, too, is hurtful.
A withdrawal from life diminishes
More than just me.

I think of myself as too small.
What use am I among the vastness
A silly, mistake-prone, appendage,
An intrusion in the flow?

And so, I discount myself.
I think that any contribution I make
Must somehow be perfect
Or it is useless.

I forget that ‘perfection’
Is a process.
It never starts at its culmination.
Growth, itself, is one of the beauties of life.
The unfolding is, itself,
A slow and stately dance.

There is, you see,
A humility that withdraws
Ashamed of its very self
But there is also quite another -
A humility that offers itself
Even knowing it is not perfect.

That is the gift of vulnerability.
And mine invites yours.

My own thread
Does not add much
To the tapestry of life
But I do love
The flawed and nubby
Pattern we make together.

Photo and tapestry by Fiona Dix posted to flickr and used per cc 2.0

opening dance

It is not about winning
Nor forcing the world into your frame
Nor fixing another’s broken ideology
Nor being right
Or even figuring out what’s wrong.

A tight fist can never hold
The true wonder of the world.

Only when you release
Your hold,
Your fierce determination,
Your very self
Can you let the dream begin.

Only when you release your breath
Into the greater sigh
Can you hope to notice
That you are a tiny part
Of something vastly more.

It is within the interplay of your desires
To be both apart and a part
Where you begin to dance
Where the hand that is yours
Can touch the hand of quite another

And wholeness begins
To knit your soul to life.

photo is my own